darz333

insecurity

2009-11-22T02:49:46Z

Insecurity, a very common word for those who are. I have been insecure all my life be it my friends or my sibling but you know, i gotten used to it. Is it normal for someone, anyone for that matter to get used to something as being insecure all your life. Maybe i have a mental condition or something but I easily feel inferior towards other people even towards my friends. I know something is wrong with me but it is not easy to seek help. I am in a shell that has been shielding me for years and I don't know how to get out. Maybe being alone is the answer.

understanding

2008-05-10T20:05:29Z

I can't seem to understand humans, one day you're all buddy buddy with this person and then when a certain rises that hinders you from seeing that person and the next time you meet they all go passive on you, not even a raise eyebrow (that would suffice) didn't happen. sigh. really sad for me since this always happens with my so called friends. i don't understands T_T

used

2007-11-10T05:35:02Z

Do you know want it feels like to be used?, people just acknowledge you when they need something from you.

there's nothing i can really do, it been going on for quite sometime now but i just look the other way, no matter how much it irritates me, i just try to ignore the feeling of being acknowledge for something i can do for them rather than being there and doing it willingly (does it make sense?). true friends are really hard to find, now i understand that statement 100%. classes has started again and i was really excited, but the moment i enter the classroom i was really torn since, it was like i was invisible or something; the people i usually hang out with was ignoring me and i tried to approach them yet they told me they were busy with something. they were lying, since the instructor never did assign any work. the pain of being there but not really there was really painful since when i was still in my secondary level i was bullied and tease, they were my first friends that actually stuck by me but all of a sudden they're gone. just like that.

^_^

2007-11-04T15:07:28Z

October 4, 2007 10:56PM

well, i' m really uncertain about writing, since i' m not really good with words. first off i want to say something about myself, i' m a loner and i' m not really brave since i have doubts which really needs to disappear. The purpose for this journal is for me say the things that I can't say to other people because their really quite personal, and i' m afraid of judge based on what they hear without understanding how those things affect me. problems are always present, no matter how rich or poor you are, the only thing similar between those kind of people are the problems they faced everyday. (hehehe) if, by any chance some people may stumble upon this journal (like anyone would bother with me? ^_^) i wish that, they may reply since, i really want to talk to someone.